Happy Birthday Dad

May 2, 2014 at 4:03 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , , )

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Today would have been my dad’s, Grandpa John as he was affectionately called birthday. Dad was always tossing my twin brother and I around. One fond photo I have is mom and dad sitting holding my brother and I. dad looked like he was saying”what am I going to do with these twins?”

I remember living on a ranch as a child, mom and dad became rabbit leaders when my brother and I were in 4-H club.  Our living room was large enough to showcase a pool table. All the kids gathered around the pool table to learn how to show our rabbits when were getting ready for the fair. Dad helped the kids build rabbit feeders and nests for our bunnies.

I remember when the family moved to Idaho. Dad brought his prized ’46 Willie’s jeep in tow. Mom and dad hosted sledding parties in the winter. Family and friends were pulled by dad’s jeep. When we could not feel fingers or toes, then we went in for hot cocoa. After thawing out, we went back out for more snow fun. My dad loved his old jeep. You could see him tooling around the neighborhood grinning from ear to ear.

When I married and had our son , everyone started calling my dad Grandpa John. My mom was Grandma John. My son was dad’s fishing buddy. Dad took Levi fishing at nine months old. It was cute Levi sitting in his stroller, Grandpa helping him reel in his catch. Now, my dad and my son are fishing together in heaven. For all the cherished memories, all the sled rides, jeep rides, hunting trips, happy Birthday dad. 

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It Is Amazing What A Skiff Of Snow Will Do….

December 5, 2013 at 6:15 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , , , )

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It snowed during the night. 

Just a skiff mind you, just enough to get me back into the holiday mood. I put Christmas music on, burning a winter inferno candle, and I have just finished putting together my Victorian village. I am ready. It is sometimes hard to get into the holiday spirit since my son Levi’s death 6 years ago.I would love to buy him his favorite cologne.In his honor, I buy 2 gifts for Toys for Tots.Christmas has sure changed the last few years.But I am keeping a peace in me in knowing my son smiles from heaven and is proud of me.  

There are so many struggling this holiday season. Some families are just trying to put food on the table, others are trying to keep heat in the house. it seems like everyone is going through something this year. I hear so many saying they can’t wait for the new year. Even in our struggles, there is so much to be thankful for everyday. Some have their families they see everyday, hug them extra tight. Some have been through some unimaginable struggles this year, I think they are thankful to be alive. Some feel depressed this time of year, I wish you peace this holiday season.

It does not matter what your circumstances are, how many gifts you can buy this year or not be able to buy. I cherish all the memories I was blessed with of christmas pasts. Watching my son Levi sledding behind his grandpa’s jeep or building a snow fort, seeing his happy cold little face light up drinking hot cocoa. I  have memories of my parents hosting the sledding parties. My dad pulled everyone around the neighborhood in his 1946 Willies jeep. I can always find something to bring a smile to my fac when I start to get depressed. I hope this holiday finds you happy, healthy, and full of grace for even uncle… we had to invite to dinner again this year. It is only for a few hours, and so many don’t have family around them this year. Life is good indeed.




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Christmas Eve Morning Snow

December 24, 2012 at 6:10 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , , , , , , , , )

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I woke up this morning

to another round of snow. Snow just makes it feel more like Christmas to me. I  am reminded of all the Christmas past sledding parties my parents would host. My dad owned a 1946 Willies Jeep he would pull friends and family around his neighborhood. Mom had hot cocoa waiting for us to warm up when we couldn’t feel fingers and toes. My husband and I celebrated many Christmas Eves with sledding parties. When our son Levi was born , we couldn’t wait until he too could go on his first sled ride.When Levi turned one, we put him on our sled he loved the snow until he pulled off a one of his gloves and picked up some snow. He cried. Levi’s daddy hugged Levi and told him he was okay and put  Levi on the sled with him,  Levi was laughing. I treasure these special memories. Today, I will spend christmas eve with my mom. My husband died from complications from his diabetes when our son Levi was four years old. My dad died from his disease in 2002. my son Levi took his grandpa’s death hard. Levi moved out of my house to take care of his grandma when his grandpa died. My son Levi was involved in a fatal traffic accident in July 2007. He was only 20. Families lives can be forever changed in a moment. My christmas prayer today would be to put your differences aside for one day. The person you feel obligated to Have to invite, may not be here next year.

One of my fondest memories of christmas eve is my son Levi and his neighbor would go outside all day and build a snow tunnel connecting both yards. I can still hear both kids laughing, planning on how to start the tunnel, and don’t block my mom and dad’s front door. I would call the both kids in for lunch to let them warm up, then back to building again. 

I would not trade my memories for anything. I was given the awesome responsibility of raising my young son alone after my husband, Levi’s dad died. Levi and I endured many hardships and difficulties, but with God’s guidance, we survived them all. I am proud of the fine young man Levi had become. yesterday I had coffee and a desert with a good friend of mine. I needed to hear her words of wisdom for my life. She told me she struggles also, but we need to live in the moment. Don’t look to the future or look behind. The sun was out so we sat in her kitchen letting the warm sun hit us the sun felt good. She told me enjoy the sunshine for it might not be here to long and we are enjoying a good cup of coffee. She is right, we can get wrapped up in ourselves or our circumstances, that we don’t appreciate what is around us. May you have a Very Merry Christmas Eve.

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Christmas Traditions

December 7, 2012 at 8:52 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , , , , , )

I remember a time when the house

was filled with laughter, my young son Levi and his grandpa decorating the tree with ornaments and lights. The talking moose and snoring santa not forgotten, each had their place in the living room. Grandma in the kitchen making cookies and planning the holiday meal. Uncle Jeff made his santa appearance while my son was fast asleep. I remember sledding parties on christmas day,all the cousins gathering at my parents home on a cold winter day. 

My family  tradition of visiting relatives on christmas eve. The tradition started when my twin brother and I were children. My parents had the neighbors put gifts under the tree while the family went visiting. On our way home that evening,dad would look at christmas lights. this has always been my favorite part of christmas. I loved to see the beautiful home decorated.

When my husband and I were married and started our family, I kept the tradition alive of visiting friends and light seeing. My husband and I went to the resort to see santa when our son Levi was two-year old. I remember spend the afternoon looking at all the decoration and listening to the Christmas carols. I treasure the memories of these special days.

my life was forever changed with the death of my husband from complications from his diabetes 6 short years after we were married and with the death of my son Levi in July 2007 at age 20. Christmas is quiet now just my mom and I. Dad died in 2002 from his disease. Life can change in a moment. The holidays are hard without my loved ones here to help celebrate,but I have treasured memories of times past when the laughter filled the house and lively conversations filled the dinner table with good cheer.Levi Degon0051

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Sledding Parties and Snow Forts

November 9, 2012 at 8:00 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , , , , , , , )


I woke up to a snowy morning.


As I watched the snow fall,  enjoying my first cup of coffee, I thought about all the sledding parties my parents hosted the first snow fall. My dad owned a 1946 Willies jeep. He pulled our sleds around the neighborhood trying not to run you into a parked car turning a corner. My son Levi had his first sled ride at one year old.He loved sledding until he took a glove off and touched the snow, then he cried. When family and friends felt frozen, we went inside where my mom had cocoa waiting. One time,My husband and I were riding in one sled, my dad went around a corner to fast and we did hit a parked car. We both fell off the sled laughing so hard we couldn’t get up. what a wonderful way to spend a chilly afternoon playing in the snow.

I remember the snow forts my son made in the front yard. Levi would spend hours outside bundled up creating his snowy masterpiece. The next door neighbor would come over and help Levi to build the fort. The fort connected the two yards. I invited the neighbor to join Levi for dinner. Early the next morning, they were back outside finishing their fort.

After school Levi would grab his sled and head across the street to a small snow-covered hill. He and his friends would play all afternoon taking turns sledding down the hill. The moms called the kids to come in at dinner. Then it was time for homework ,a bath and bed. I cherish the memories of my son and watching him grow into the fine young man he had become.

Sometimes our live take a different direction that we envisioned.  My son was lost to a tragic car accident 5 years ago. I am thankful I have so many good memories to write stories about his life and the friends and family who help encourage me to keep moving forward in my life.

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